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Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore
She loves salting my wounds
Yes, she enjoys nothing more.







/ (06) march april may fanmail.


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

i hate myself.

why was i hesistant. why why why. i dont understand myself. i cant expect anyone to do so now. i brought all these to myself. so why am i like feeling so sad, why am i even crying ???!!?!? why.
think jiayi. if you had said yes, it would be like 4 months now. if you had said yes, it would have saved you from all the tears, all the pain and heartache, right ? if you had said yes, YOU WOULD BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD.

SO WHY DINT I. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.

i cant help it. all i can do now is? CRY & REGRET. CRY CRY CRY. CRY WHAT CRY. CRY YOUR FUCKING HEAD LA. IT'S ALL YOU WHO BROUGHT UPON ALL THESE TO YOURSELF. YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN RIGHT. SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THIS DAY WILL COME SOMEDAY. WHY ARE YOU REGRETTING. YOU BITCH. YOU FILTHY BITCH. IM SO DISGUSTED IN YOU.

i know. i really know. im sorry.


only almost here,
9:22 PM.